Today was a nice day; it was sunny and there were no clouds in sight. It was weird seeming what the circumstances were. Lucas’s execution was today. After I went back into the Society and had got some cereal in line in the Great Hall I sat down at one of the tables. Eve and Abrianna joined me soon after. I noticed how everyone wore solemn faces. Even though this execution was for the better everyone still didn’t like to see someone hanged…well most people. There were several people who were excited to see Luke’s death. Zoe’s dad being one of them.
“Hey have you guys seen Zoe lately?” I asked looking at the two girls
They shook their heads “No I haven’t,” Abrianna replied “but it’s kind of early to ask. I’m sure we’ll meet up with her later.”
I nodded “Oh Eve, Michael wanted me to tell you that there won’t be any practice today because of the event. Same goes for you Abri.”
They both nodded. I sighed. I noticed how Eve kept looking around as though looking for someone. She was trying not to make it too noticeable but I’ve known her to long not to.
“Looking for someone?” I asked
“Uh….no, guess not.” She replied going back to eating
I gave up. I’ve been noticing that Eve and I have been fading apart ever since Clement and I brought her back to the Society. Sure we were still friends…but we weren’t as close as we used to be. I still loved her, but I wasn’t so sure if she felt the same way for me.
“Can I talk to you after we eat?” I asked her “It’s kind of important.”
She gave me a confused look “Sure, I guess.”
We sat there eating in silence as we all heard people talk about Luke and the execution happening in two hours. It would be taking place outside in the woods in the far back. I watched as people from other tables would look over and start whispering (taking about Eve most likely). I sighed in annoyance.
“You’d think people would have their own lives to worry about,” I replied annoyed “but no, they have to talk about other people to pass time by. Will you excuse for a second?”
“Where are you going?” Abrianna asked as I stood up and walked towards the table of talking people.
I grabbed a chair and sat down at their table. They were all laughing and I faked a laugh with them. They then stopped.
“So who are we talking about today?” I asked
They were all silent.
“Oh come on,” I flashed a smile “I can take a joke to you know….no? Then quit talking about people and get a life.”
“Oh we have lives alright,” a red haired man smiled “You people just make it more interesting.”
I got up with my fists clenched.
Malcolm no Gabriel’s voice echoed in my head Don’t waste your time on these kind of people. It’ll only make matters worse.
Fine
I unclenched my fists pushed the chair back over to its other table and walked away. I sat back down with Abri and Eve and leaned back.
“The nerve that some people have.” Abri scowled
“No kidding.” I repliedÃ
After we had all finished our breakfast Abri said she’d meet up with us before the execution and left with the rest of the crowd of people.
“So what did you need to talk about?” Eve asked
I stood there and hesitated…I didn’t know what to say at first but then replied “Eve…you remember that night in the woods? After you ran off from Clement and I?”
“Yah…you were about to say something before..Clement interrupted.”
“Well…I told you we were very close back then. I guess you could say we were together.”
“I remember…” she said softly. Her expression was sad
“The night that you chose to forget everything…I thought I’d never see you again…well at least not close up, but things changed and I got you back…but…it seems as though we’re fading Eve. That night in the woods…I was going to say I loved you and I still do, but what do you feel?”
I could see she was shocked by what I had just said. I had to know though. I stepped closer.
“Eve, I love you. I always have…I always will you know that right?”
The shock faded into sadness “Malcolm I-”
I leaned in and kissed her gently on the lips. It had been so long since I had felt her soft lips. A few seconds had passed when she pulled away.
“Malcolm…I-I can’t.”
I gave her a confused look “What’s wrong? Did I do something?”
“No, no!” she replied quickly “I just can’t do this…not now. I’m sorry Malcolm.”
I looked down “I suppose I should have known it was too soon. I just have missed you so much Evelynn. I don’t want us to fade.”
“I don’t either..but I don’t know I just can’t. I’m sorry but I have to go get ready for the execution.”
She walked away then leaving me in the hall alone. I was confused; I didn’t think it was too soon…but then again maybe it was. I didn’t know, but I’d give Eve some more time. When she figured it out she’d let me know.Ã
I walked down the halls in silence. It was breakfast but I didn’t feel like eating. I had passed Eliza’s room but found she wasn’t there. Bresal had also seemed to be missing (probably trying to find my sister who had also gone missing). God it felt like the fog. Every demon was disappearing. I chuckled at the thought. I’d better watch my back then. They were probably around here somewhere. As the silence continued I started to think about Eve; I felt bad for how I acted towards her. I couldn’t blame her for wanting a normal life. I myself wish I could go back to my old life.
When I decided that there wasn’t anything in this building for me to do I walked outside into the fresh air. I realized that Luke’s execution was today. Eve must be feeling horrible. I wouldn’t but she probably was. Hmm, maybe I could make her feel better by getting her something. I knew we had a fight but I didn’t want her to think that I was always an ass. I laughed when I thought of that moment. Sure it was insulting then but I had to admit I can be one most of the time (I’d never admit that out loud though).
I thought back to the conversation before the fight.
“I just don’t. I can’t say that I didn’t feel anything…but I can’t say that I did either. I’m sorry you saw what you did, and I’m sorry that I kissed you in the first place. I shouldn’t have done that.”
“Why did you then?” she had asked
“I don’t know that’s the thing Eve. I truly don’t know.”
Maybe I did know though. I had told her to forget the kiss and said I shouldn't have kissed her in the first place. Yet did I really want her to forget it? Did I really regret kissing her? I remembered the way we could get along and yet get into a fight at the same time. Eve and I always had a strange relationship but it was strong one at that. I remembered all the times we locked gazes. The times we were only a centimeter apart….I think I do love her. My feelings hadn’t gone after all, just bottled up waiting to be released. I realized that no matter what my relationship was with Eve…I couldn’t live without her (no matter how infuriating or stubborn she can be).
I walked until I came to the edge of the woods. I looked up into the ski and closed my eyes. How would I tell her though? Did she feel the same way? Maybe and maybe not. I had to try though. I looked down and saw a bush of yellow roses. The light of the sun seemed to make their color glow. They made me think of how fragile life could be. It also showed how beautiful it could also be. Surely no one would miss one. I bent down and picked out one that was in full bloom.
I then headed back for the building in search for Eve. The delicate flower in my right hand. I walked to the Great Hall and heard Eve and Malcolm talking. I turned the corner and stopped. There they stood kissing. Damn I had to experience déjà vu once again. I felt my heart break once again. I was too late…again. I looked down as the flower dropped onto the ground. I backed up and walked off before they could see me.•
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